I have never been pregnant,
I recently joined the New Enterprise Incentive Scheme program; a government funded initiative for new businesses to receive business training and support to get off Centrelink and start a new business.
When my business plan for Moving Connections is approved, I will receive a 9-month gestation period of financial support and training before my baby is birthed officially into the world.
So for now, I’m pregnant!
You might think, “but Moving Connections has been a thing for years, right?? It’s already alive isn’t it?”
Well, yes… but not really, not fully.
For myself, this journey I have been on with Alexander Technique for the past eight years has brought me into much more of a sense of fullness, of dimensionality; awareness of my substance, my matter, and that I matter.
I used to walk around as if I was invisible; a hologram. As if I could hide my intentions and thoughts from the world. I hid them from myself, buried under layers of shame and unworthiness. I didn’t know who I was.
As I have been coming into more of myself, embodying my whole, intelligently organised system with more ease and grace, I’ve been able to ‘get out of my own way’ like never before…
And for those of you who know the story as to why I started Moving Connections, you’ll know there was a lot of stuff in the way!
I really just did it because I needed it. I needed to create a space where the musicians can move between audience, dancer and musician fluidly. Where the people in the group can feel seen and touched by the music, by themselves and each other. Where we can be honest, real, loving and expressive artists.
I needed to feel my community holding me and benefiting from my gifts.
I needed to find and create a space where we could stop getting in our own collective ways and let the creative spirit do the work for us and through us and with us.
So, I didn’t think about the money, I didn’t do it for that… In fact, I didn’t even feel worthy of money. In fact, looking back now that I’m doing this training, I have no idea how I’ve even survived until now!
It’s time to make my own money.
If anyone has ever had an Alexander Technique (A.T.) lesson, you’ll know that it’s not that easy to hide from the teacher…
A.T. teachers are trained to see people’s thoughts in motion, to see the direction of their energy as it moves from idea into form. The whole essence of Alexander’s discovery is that the mind and body are inseparable. If you train yourself to see the whole, to zoom out and take in everything available to your senses, whilst observing the way a person moves at the relationship between their head and spine, you’ll start to be able to do a magic trick; what appears to be ‘reading their mind’.
It’s not really just their mind you’re reading, though. You’ll be seeing the whole. From there, patterns are easier to see. Patterns of movement, of speech, of timing.
My former self who thought she was invisible didn’t stand a chance against that kind of seeing. She has been blasted into this fuller version of me that is sitting here, writing to you.
As I’ve been training myself to see more, to zoom out to see the whole and include my peripherals like an eagle, I have come to see the importance of structure and money to help me help more people whilst earning a living doing what I love.
Now, I know I need this work, and I know others need this work too. The experience I can provide enlivens the soul, opens the door to Choice, moves stagnant energy and is a whole lot of simple, wholesome FUN.
We need more play in our lives!
SO, I have applied for a loan to get some help with my marketing structure (of which I currently have none), so that I can reach the people that want to engage with this stuff.
Moving Connections is cocooning, is going into the womb; my womb, to re-emerge as the beautiful butterfly and creative child of the world it needs to be. To evolve with all the innate intelligence of the natural world, in a world where we have never needed it more.
This means CHANGE, adaption and evolution.
So, for now… There will be no weekly classes in Cygnet as they have been going for the next month. I have been only just breaking even and things need to change if they’re going to sustain. I deeply love the practice of having a weekly class, so it’s not going away, just into the chrysalis of change… Stay tuned for the new details!
Online classes are also in the womb for everyone outside of Tasmania...
The next Cygnet class will be on the 16th June from 7-9pm, and from Sunday 27th June I will be beginning monthly full-day immersions in Hobart at the SOHO Living Arts Centre. More info to come! Save the dates if you're a Taswegian.
Finally, I am absolutely LOVING offering one on one Creative Pathway Sessions for all of you who would like some deep, creative support to find your authentic expression. Find out more here.
Until next week, a quote by F. Scott Fitzgerald, and a pretty picture.
Yours in Art,
"For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again."
Image: My Body, My Temple, by Autumn Skye
Sent 3rd June, 2021